Raw
I welcomed loneliness with a warm embrace— but it seems it overstayed.
It had embedded itself in my soul, becoming a part of me.
I wish it farewell, every day.
Hope. I chase hope like a madman—screaming and wailing for it. One day, when I wake up, the loneliness will no longer be there.
I hope for the pain that doesn’t exist to finally go away.
Need. The need for something greater than me fills my body day and night.
My insides tear. My soul weeps.
I am in need. I feel it in my chest and my mind. It hurts.
I want to move. Travel. Live. See. Hear. Laugh.
I need it all.
Fearful. Fear has weaved itself into my bones, leaving me frozen in time.
While the world spins, I am stuck. Unmoving.
My mind screams for me to do something— but my body acts like it’s not even mine. I'm suspended between two worlds.
Light and Dark.
When my brain says get up, my body hides like a coward.
Fear is my demon.